I Quit My Job at 24

Today is the last day of the job I've worked for the better part of 6 years. It was my home in a sense. Something that's been more consistent in my life than any other in the past decade. Not to be dramatic, but shit.

The cocktails were poured, and so too the tears followed. Nice sentiments of au revoir from my dysfunctional family. Now I'm staring down the abyss of the rest of my life. Every day you wake up and make simple + big decisions of how you want to live the day, and ultimately the entirety of your life. But now that feels somehow more real - and finally consequential. I've been yearning for something to grab me + shake. Hard. A spurt of growth in my horizon; and I'm freaking out. Both in a good and scary way.

I learned a lot last year. Most of them personal and so, hard to articulate. Having a stable foundation has been a blessing in the form of a constant to leap from, and a curse for watching the constant you cherish deeper than most, evolve against your desires. I was worried when I moved into Ocean Beach, worried that I was stuck. That it wasn't a worthy cause to be home so soon. Yet, I grew more not in spite of that worry but because of its truth.

Joined my first soccer team in 6 years, playing with my beloved childhood friend. Reconnected with another long lost best girl friend. We used to play princess together, but she's a real life one now <3 Lived in a little beach cottage with my other half, and played sisters - fights and all. The worst driver I know lives in SF, but I will always risk riding shotgun. Speaking of Sisters - two moved across the country and fell in love with their lives again. My life bursts with love from these souls + so many more.

SO am I crazy? I chopped all my hair off and jumped out of a plane. I quit my job. Australia. I'm moving - where? Don't know. For how long? We'll see. By yourself? No. Even scarier. A boy...I guess we'll fucking see, but let me tell you: my younger self thinks I'm pretty cool + lucky. I am leaving bittersweetly, but I will always be back forever <3